A Diary Of Sexual Solitude

JOURNAL D'UNE SOLITUDE SEXUELLE

Belgium, 2022, 26'

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The film is born out of the powerful, impetuous desire that drives the young director to seek in men a way to give substance to what is burning inside her. The repeated encounters, however, instead of satisfying the senses, create an ever larger breach between expectations and reality, while the pursued sensory fullness results in increasing solitude. The director’s diary thus constructs a chronicle of frustrated desire, a succession of unmade beds,* sleeping bodies, and clothes scattered on the floor, that become symbols of boring and predictable sexuality devoid of intimacy. The stubbornness in provoking new meetings stems from the willingness to understand where the game of seduction breaks down, because only an empty box is left of it, made of gestures reiterated without conviction. Incapable of identifying in passive, pleasureless female sexuality, the director finds out that this game is actually rigged: one of the parties already knows they’re going to win, while the other remains trapped in others’ expectations. However, if this is the mechanism imposed by stale gender roles, then Nina Alexandraki can decide to sabotage it, with a liberating laughter that reveals the king is naked and finally gives voice to her desire.